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BruBadger:iconbrubadger:
Hi Jake.
Sat Jan 7, 2017, 5:10 PM
Fox-Jake:iconfox-jake:
Howdy Bru
Fri Jan 6, 2017, 3:36 PM
AlexRaccoonGlider:iconalexraccoonglider:
*wipes down the shoutbox after so long*
Fri Dec 23, 2016, 8:56 PM
AlexRaccoonGlider:iconalexraccoonglider:
Roocan after a buffet: "*BURRRRRRRRP!!!"
Wed Apr 1, 2015, 6:18 PM
JWthaMajestic:iconjwthamajestic:
Allow me, Mr. NS. SHOUT!!! =O
Wed Jan 21, 2015, 8:58 PM
NS-Games:iconns-games:
Somebody needs to leave a shout in this thing. It's been unused for 2 an a half years now.
Wed Jan 14, 2015, 11:20 PM
CyberFox:iconcyberfox:
anyway, bring on regressed Gemma ^^;;
Sat Jun 2, 2012, 9:21 PM
BruBadger:iconbrubadger:
Well, I might do soon if I can.
Thu May 10, 2012, 11:26 AM
CyberFox:iconcyberfox:
so...um, you're gonna do Damien and regressed Gemma playing?
Wed May 9, 2012, 1:10 PM
lazer-squirrel:iconlazer-squirrel:
I feel the fish smothering my brain.
Sat Jun 4, 2011, 3:15 PM
CyberFox:iconcyberfox:
WIZARDHEIMER!
Mon May 30, 2011, 7:17 PM
BruBadger:iconbrubadger:
Spaghetti!
Tue May 10, 2011, 12:01 PM
LukeTheeMewtwo:iconluketheemewtwo:
I wonder whats for dinner..
Mon May 9, 2011, 1:42 PM
LukeTheeMewtwo:iconluketheemewtwo:
Roocan is awesome
Thu May 5, 2011, 1:13 PM
BruBadger:iconbrubadger:
Thanks! :bow:
Fri Apr 8, 2011, 5:28 PM
fredvegerano:iconfredvegerano:
Your Roocan comics strips really rules!Excellent!:clap:
Fri Apr 8, 2011, 12:39 PM
BruBadger:iconbrubadger:
Good question. I'm not sure... :XD:
Sat Mar 26, 2011, 9:49 AM
LukeTheeMewtwo:iconluketheemewtwo:
oooo.... fun idea! who'd win in a fight? Roocan Vs Fat Abert
Fri Mar 25, 2011, 1:11 PM
LukeTheeMewtwo:iconluketheemewtwo:
anytime.
Fri Mar 25, 2011, 1:09 PM
BruBadger:iconbrubadger:
Thank you, that's a lot of stars! :)
Fri Mar 25, 2011, 12:21 PM
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I feel like I owe everyone this explanation. Some of you will surely have noticed how I acted in the past few hours - I  had a terrible emotional outburst relating to matters involving my artwork and my presence here online. Worst of all, the reasons will probably seem all too familiar.

Despite my friends reassuring me several times, I still felt insecure and full of doubt about whether I'm truly worthy of them. I still kept getting upset when, if I reached out to other artists who are close to my own friends, they didn't return the favour. It'd make me feel left out and thinking "that means I'm not good enough for them - if so, then what makes me think I'm good enough for my friends who are also their friends?", especially considering how I regard most of my friends as being much better artists than me. To be honest, I still felt like many of my friends were just putting up with me out of pity; I just felt like only by having the same watchers as them could I make them truly respect me and be proud of me. I was desperate, but I really shouldn't have taken this kind of thing personally and gotten so jealous again though. Why did I get so upset about it? I really wish I knew for sure, but I also wish I hadn't been so weak - things wouldn't have turned out this badly if I'd only managed to control my emotions.

I'm so afraid that my overreaction will have dire consequences for me; but I guess I can't really blame anyone for being unable to put up with me anymore when I seem to be like this all the time. I really hope I will learn my lesson this time though, maybe I really needed some kind of harsh punitive measure to finally stop me from ever being like this again. I'm sure I'll always regret ever behaving like this, but I feel like I may never truly recover or be the same again after this ordeal.

I don't want to make excuses for my behaviour, but it does seem like certain feelings I've been having have been eating away at me, perhaps causing a cycle of these outbursts from me when I try to manage them but eventually fail. A lot of the time, I do feel like I'm generally a failure and that I'm really not good at anything (I once spent 2 years looking for a paid job, and I didn't get a single one). I've been thinking that maybe I've been suffering from anxiety or depression, but I haven't dared to mention it since it seems like so many others I know online are suffering from the same things. I'm worried that I might offend them by suggesting that I may have depression too; I even wonder if people feel I'm too shy, simple-minded and/or untalented to be truly depressed.

I'm very sorry to all my watchers, and also to everyone I myself have watched, especially recently. I'd say my future here is pretty uncertain at this moment. I doubt I'll ever forgive myself for this, and I've certainly lost virtually all of what little respect I had for myself, but I just hope I can learn to have the strength to accept whatever the consequences may be and to move on.
Roocan Strip 212
Becoming a similar size to Roocan is something Vixelle seems to have considered inevitable for herself. She probably just wishes that he'd lost a lot of weight by the time it happened instead...
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Bruce
Birthday gift for Africa2000: I've drawn Bruce, a wolf. :cake: He's been shown eating burgers before, so I thought I'd draw him eating one here too. :)

Bruce belongs to Africa2000
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I'm sorry about what I did and how I acted last night; I wish I wasn't so clumsy, but I hope I'm learning my lesson from this. Thanks to everyone who expressed concern and responded to my previous Status Update.
Lobster
Birthday gift for FangRat: this is Lobster, one of his rat characters. :cake: It seems she probably got that name from owning a hundred pet lobsters when she was younger. :)

Lobster belongs to FangRat
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Mrs. Brisby
I felt like it was perhaps about time I made some more cartoon-related fan art, so I decided to try drawing Mrs. Brisby, a mouse who stars in the film The Secret of NIMH. I enjoyed watching it for the first time several months ago; it was really my first time properly watching a Don Bluth movie, plus I've never drawn fan art based on his works before. Unlike with most previous fan art I've uploaded here, I tried adapting the character to my own style of cartooning; I used drawing and colouring pens for Mrs. Brisby herself here, while the admittedly rather simple and abstract background there was done in coloured pencil.

(© MGM Television Entertainment Inc.)
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Dumps Concepts
Here I've drawn out some ideas I got for Dumps, and I've come up with the name Project Packrat for her setting.
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Roocan Strip 211
It seems Roocan doesn't quite understand how Vixelle feels about her current situation despite his own considerable experience of it. Perhaps she isn't so understanding of a situation he once found himself in...
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Dragolion Tangui
Birthday gift for Toxicoow: here's Tangui the dragolion. :cake: I've drawn Tangui in his usual form as a lion before, but more recently he's been appearing as a dragon hybrid too. :)

Tangui belongs to Toxicoow
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Boxing Kangaroo
For The Martial Arts Mayhem art jam by CowboyCrocket. Being a kangaroo, Kurt probably thought he'd be quite a natural at boxing, but it seems he soon met his match.
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Roocan Strip 210
It seems Roocan's trying to convince Vixelle that bigger and better things are in store for her since she tried his doughnuts. There might not be enough room for both of them here now though...
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Chuck
Birthday gift for BluebottleFlyer: it's Chuck, the crocodile lifeguard from his series The Surf Club. :cake: I thought I'd upload this pic at this moment since it's now his birthday both where I am and where he is. :)

Chuck belongs to BluebottleFlyer
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Roocan Strip 209
It seems Vixelle thought she might let Roocan down if she didn't give his Christmas doughnuts a taste. She apparently has no regrets about going beyond that, at least for now...
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Well, it seems our router is working again, at least for now. I'm sorry about overreacting before, but I thank everyone for their concern and efforts to help. I still have a bad feeling about my internet connection though, and I hope you'll understand that it could be the cause of me being unexpectedly inactive here in the future.
I feel like I owe everyone this explanation. Some of you will surely have noticed how I acted in the past few hours - I  had a terrible emotional outburst relating to matters involving my artwork and my presence here online. Worst of all, the reasons will probably seem all too familiar.

Despite my friends reassuring me several times, I still felt insecure and full of doubt about whether I'm truly worthy of them. I still kept getting upset when, if I reached out to other artists who are close to my own friends, they didn't return the favour. It'd make me feel left out and thinking "that means I'm not good enough for them - if so, then what makes me think I'm good enough for my friends who are also their friends?", especially considering how I regard most of my friends as being much better artists than me. To be honest, I still felt like many of my friends were just putting up with me out of pity; I just felt like only by having the same watchers as them could I make them truly respect me and be proud of me. I was desperate, but I really shouldn't have taken this kind of thing personally and gotten so jealous again though. Why did I get so upset about it? I really wish I knew for sure, but I also wish I hadn't been so weak - things wouldn't have turned out this badly if I'd only managed to control my emotions.

I'm so afraid that my overreaction will have dire consequences for me; but I guess I can't really blame anyone for being unable to put up with me anymore when I seem to be like this all the time. I really hope I will learn my lesson this time though, maybe I really needed some kind of harsh punitive measure to finally stop me from ever being like this again. I'm sure I'll always regret ever behaving like this, but I feel like I may never truly recover or be the same again after this ordeal.

I don't want to make excuses for my behaviour, but it does seem like certain feelings I've been having have been eating away at me, perhaps causing a cycle of these outbursts from me when I try to manage them but eventually fail. A lot of the time, I do feel like I'm generally a failure and that I'm really not good at anything (I once spent 2 years looking for a paid job, and I didn't get a single one). I've been thinking that maybe I've been suffering from anxiety or depression, but I haven't dared to mention it since it seems like so many others I know online are suffering from the same things. I'm worried that I might offend them by suggesting that I may have depression too; I even wonder if people feel I'm too shy, simple-minded and/or untalented to be truly depressed.

I'm very sorry to all my watchers, and also to everyone I myself have watched, especially recently. I'd say my future here is pretty uncertain at this moment. I doubt I'll ever forgive myself for this, and I've certainly lost virtually all of what little respect I had for myself, but I just hope I can learn to have the strength to accept whatever the consequences may be and to move on.

Journal History

What should I focus on this year in terms of drawing? 

73%
19 deviants said Refining my current style
12%
3 deviants said Developing a new original style
12%
3 deviants said Taking inspiration from a style of one or more other artists here
4%
1 deviant said Drawing more like an established, mainstream style (e.g. Disney)
0%
No deviants said Undertale fan art

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Socket78 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2017  Professional Artist
Thanks for the llama!
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. :)
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Socket78 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2017  Professional Artist
^^
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SAGADreams Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2017  Student Filmographer
Thank you for the fav +fav and the commentary on my pic.:typerhappy: hi 
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. :)
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SAGADreams Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2017  Student Filmographer
;) ;) ;P
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David31 Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the fav on :iconfredvegerano:'s picture. :)
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. :)
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ZookieDragon Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2017  Professional Artist
Thanks for watching me!
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Edited Jan 13, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome, and thanks for watching back. :)
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Ryex-617 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey, thanks for the fave, the comment and for the watch. Very VERY much appreciated. :thanks:
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome, and thanks for watching back. :) I admit I'd already been watching you since several months ago, but due to a mistake I made, I inadvertently ended up removing a couple of artists from my watch list. I've since added them back again, but I'm sorry about it happening in the first place.
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Ryex-617 Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey, you're welcome! No worries I completely understand, mishaps happen from time to time. ;)

I hope you keep up the wonderful artwork, looking forward to seeing more. :thumbsup:
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CosmoCoyote Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fave!:D (Big Grin) 
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. :)
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Virus-20 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2016
I should have said this a long time, ago, but thank you for the Birthday wishes. :)
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
It's OK, you're welcome. :)
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Virus-20 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2016
I should have said this a long time, ago, but thank you for the Birthday wishes. :)
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Fox-Jake Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2016  Professional Traditional Artist
Thank you for the points dude :D
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. :)
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RonRaccoon Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2016  Student Filmographer
Thanks for the watch dude! :D
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome, thanks for the watch back. :)
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JCSStudio Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Guess who, old bean!? X3
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BruBadger Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, hi again. ^^
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JCSStudio Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
how are you? It's been ages1
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